Spiritual progress through purity
how to rid your soul of
impurities
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situation is a good analogy of our souls’ relation to God. Our souls
were created to be like windows that are open to God. God’s presence
fills us as light fills a room. The purity of our souls allows God’s
light to shine within us. A soul that is not pure cannot see God
because the impurities block God from entering the soul and block
the person’s vision of God.
What does it mean to have impurities inside the soul? Impurities are
a soul’s attachment to things, images, memories and desires that
block a person from considering the truth about God and about one’s
relationship with God. Impurities weaken the will and discourage a
person. Impurities are very harmful. A person loses the will to have
a clean soul and allow God to come inside. A person with an impure
heart will lose faith and not want to pray or go to church anymore.
The impurities are like mud that a person is wallowing in and cannot
escape from. People may lose heart and despair. They may throw in
the towel and give themselves over to their impurities, and their
condition will grow worse.
For example, there was a young person who got on the Internet and,
without his parents’ knowing, got curious and went to some sites
that had pornography on them. Before long, the person got other
buddies to join in, and the whole group of them began to find other
sites. In a short while, many of them could not stop thinking about
these images. The parents of the young man began to suspect
something was wrong because they noticed a change in their son. He
did not want to go to Mass anymore and did not seem interested in
doing things with the family. He kept to himself more and more and
they noticed he was up very late at night. The young man was
trapped. He had boarded up the windows of his soul to keep his
behavior a secret. The light of God was not able to get in.
Of course, God does not stop shining on us. Even a dirty window does
allow some light to get in! In the case of this young man, he began
to realize what he was doing was very wrong. He felt miserable
inside. He started to act out his sexual thoughts through
masturbation, which brought him only more sadness. His experience of
God’s light and presence when he was younger did not leave him and
he longed for it. God came to his aid and helped move the young man
to go to the sacrament of reconciliation. He had to close the
windows of his soul to all forms of pornography and sexual images.
He had to wash the windows of his soul with prayer and the
sacraments. He had to go through a purgation that eliminated the
impurities inside. It took patience and perseverance through trials
and falls. He had to learn to trust God and surrender to God. The
more he did so, the easier it became. God was cleaning his windows
for him. The light and brightness of his personality came back!
We all must go through a purgation of our soul if we want a closer
relationship with God. As time goes on, and we respond to the grace
of purification, we will find our prayer life changing as well. The
Doctors of the Church, such as St. John of the Cross and others,
describe three classical stages of the spiritual life - the
purgative, illuminative and unitive ways. Because of the limited
scope of this article, I will not be able to go into much detail
about each stage, especially the unitive way and the experience
called the dark night of the soul. Let’s just say that as one draws
closer to union with God, God continues to purify the soul through
passive purifications that are experienced by the person as “dark
nights.” It is as though God has left them. The words of Jesus on
the cross come to mind, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”
(Ps 22)
Our spiritual journey to God begins with an awakening of faith. God
becomes real! We then realize in our relationship with God we must
make a choice. Either we make a choice for God, or not. We are in
the purgative way. That is where the major impurities of our soul
are purged. Our focus is moral integration, living the commandments,
overcoming sin, growing in faith and trust in God. We struggle along
they way.
We sometimes fall. We get back up. We keep going. There are trials
of faith, moral trials and trials of trust. Our prayer life at this
time is mostly characterized by petition prayer - “Dear God, help!”
In time, we learn to spend more time with God. We grow more
comfortable with prayer. We begin to practice a form of prayer that
is called meditation. Meditation is when we think about the life of
Jesus in the Gospels, or some truth of the faith. Some people are
blessed with a good imagination and are able to picture the biblical
scene in their minds. The movie The Passion of the Christ has some
powerful images in it concerning the suffering of Jesus that could
be a good aid in meditation. Stations of the Cross or holy pictures
can help. Nature offers plenty of food for thought, too! God teaches
us much through meditation.
Sometimes, after a person has learned to pray this way, they may
find their hearts and minds growing quieter and still. Distractions
disappear. Their heart longs for more. Our heart aches and pines for
God. They have come to a deeper recollection of spirit, and their
prayer is more felt. Prayer is simple and comes more from the heart.
Instead of just petition prayers, there are prayers of heartfelt
thanks and praise, gratitude and attitudes of love and devotion. At
times, a person may find oneself being caught up in a deep and
powerful encounter with God. This is the beginning of contemplative
meditation, or even simple contemplation that is characteristic of
the illuminative way.
Most of the spiritual authors I have ever read make a big
distinction at this point in terms of prayer. Meditation is a prayer
form we can do with the help of God, but our efforts are very
important. Contemplation is a sheer gift of God that requires no
effort on the part of the person receiving this gift! Contemplative
prayer is something that God initiates. Nevertheless, contemplative
prayer can be prepared for by our efforts. It usually does not occur
until a person has made good spiritual progress along the way. The
virtues of humility, purity, generosity, faith, hope and love are
more strongly rooted in the person. The windows of the soul are wide
open to God, and God enters in as God chooses. The person is
supernaturally one with God. For we “have died, and our lives are
hidden with Christ in God.” (Col 3:3)
The gift of contemplative prayer is united to the gift of union with
God Himself. It is something God wants for all of us! No exceptions.
How do we keep moving along the journey? We can keep our windows
clean and God will take us there!
spiritual exercise - meditation and contemplation
1 Prayerfully read John 9. It is the story of Jesus healing
the man born blind. Meditate on the story by imagining yourself to
be the blind man as you read it.
2 Ponder what it would be like to be blind. Imagine yourself
trying to do the various things you do now without the power to see.
How does it feel to be in darkness? Spiritually we are all blind
until God gives us the gift to see. Seeing is receiving the gift of
faith. Our spiritual sight is clouded and darkened by sin.
3 Ask Jesus to come into your soul. Pray, “Jesus, you are the
light of the world. O Radiant Light, O Son Divine, shed your light
on me. Help me to see myself as you see me. Help me to see my sin
and impurities.” Pray this prayer slowly from your heart. Imagine
yourself as the blind man who was just given sight by Jesus. You
open your eyes for the first time and you are looking directly into
the face of Jesus your Savior. He is with you as light helping you
to see.
4 Express your love for Jesus as your heart is moved to. At
any time - and I mean any time! - when you feel yourself drawn
deeper in the prayer where you experience your mind becoming
recollected and quiet and focused and peaceful, and you feel your
heart being drawn to God - just let yourself go where the Spirit is
leading you. Do not break away from this pull and tug from God to
focus back on the mediation. Let your mind be docile before God.
This prayer is more felt but it will engage all of you. If a person
is generous in living the Gospel and generous in the amount of time
they spend in prayer with God, God will lead them to union and
contemplation. This is not just for some, but is intended for all.
Keep the windows of the soul clean and God will shine all the time.
Even in the dark night - God is shining so bright that the powers of
the soul are totally blinded by Him.
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